It's actually an hour past midnight but I thought midnight musings would be a more catchy title. Recently, I have had several thoughts running through my mind about all the things we need to get done since our big move back to KL.
Upmost on the list would be, of course, to get jobs and start working asap. To clean up the room is also quite high on the list especially if you could see the condition the room is in at the moment (think pigsty). I think we've been procrastinating on cleaning big time just because theres so much to do and we get distracted by pictures (mostly involving me and my loving husband laughing his head off) and old CDs (what up, Ja Rule!).
Another thing we need to consider is whether Toha would be going to playschool or staying at home. Is two too young an age to send a child to school? Then again, I really want him to learn how to socialise with other kids his age and probably it will help with his vocabulary and manners too.
Specifically for me, I would really really love to pick up french again! Every time we've been to Paris since my undergrad in 2010, I could feel my french slowly and slowly becoming nonexistent 'till the last trip where I could hardly speak french at all! And it's such a pity as I was quite good at it (if I do say so myself, hah!).
And intertwined with all these thoughts is the underlining yearning to be back in the UK. I knew it was going to be hard moving back after seven years abroad but I didn't know it was going to be THIS hard. I think it just hit us that no, we wont be able to go to Waterstones for our favourite mocha whenever it pleases us or weekly trips to Wholefoods Market to stock up on coconut yoghurt or wear matching winter clothes with the baby!!!
Don't get me wrong, of course being in Malaysia is great. Having family and close friends just a drive away is what I missed the most when we were far but I think seven years in the UK has made it feel more like home than my own country (especially since you can take a 2 hour train ride to Paris whenever you feel like it! Or when it's cheapest usually in my case lol).
I guess the reality has just sinked in that, although we would be going to Paris, London, and Manchester again, it wouldn't be permanent. Plus we would have to deal with new responsibilities and obligations now back in Malaysia instead of living the carefree life we had back in the UK. But that's life I guess and Alhamdulillah I did get the experience and I've made so many good friends that are more like families along the way.
That being said, the future is so unexpected and you never know where life might take you. So, for now, insyaAllah our new life in Malaysia will be good for us but we will constantly work towards our goals ( bearing in mind if it's the best decision for the family in life and the hereafter ). So no matter where life takes us, I pray that we will still be strong as a family and be good Muslims. InsyaAllah, Amin.
